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But to me, I think it's something all of us must deal with. I have been dealing with it lately.
I started out this year like a bullet out of a gun. I had the motiviation to finish my novel, and got through more chapters than I have in years. I'm now on Chapter 14 and I have three chapters to go. I'm almost done with my book. Right now, I am five lines into the chapter and it's been like that all week.
I try to talk myself into it. I really do. But it's tough. I got laid off from my job a few weeks ago and really, I have all sorts of time to write now. But the motiviation just isn't there.
So what do you do? What do you do when you don't have motiviation? Do we write anyways? Fight it?
I guess so. I know I'm supposed to. But it's tough.
This time I didn't ask the writing community what to do...I didn't ask the experts. Instead, I'm just putting it out there.
Our jobs as writers is to write. No matter how many blog posts we write, no matter how often we tweet, and no matter how much self promotion we do, at the end of the day, we define ourselves as a writer by writing.
With or without motiviation, we must write. Even if we are spent. Even if we are drained. Even if the emotional energy is just. Not. There. I wanted to write this blog post for myself. To tell myelf this -
That no matter how much you get down, you are a writer. You are a writer. You don't need to be published to call yourself that. That even when the stress gets to you, the critics get to you, the stories just won't flow anymore - you are a writer. You have been that your whole life. Never forget that. You have wanted to be a writer way before you knew what it meant to be published. You just wanted to tell stories.
Today, tell a story. Write a story. Write for the purpose of getting that character out of your head, because he or she or it needs a voice. Write a story because there is a place, a location that haunts you, disturbs you, makes you think, inspires you, because it needs a voice too. Write because it feels good. Write because you want you to. Write for the audience, the reader that you haven't met yet. Write for the little child in you that dreamed about one day finding their name on the list of authors at the public library. Write for foolish, lofty reasons. Write terribly. Write good. Write what you want to write.
But know this - you are not alone. Others feel this way too even if they refuse to admit it. Even if they think they are above the lack of motiviation. Even if no one talks about it.
Be motivated today, because, damn it, you are worth it. The writer in you is worth it.
Remember, I wrote this post for me.
But I hope you find some use for it today too.